Whoever has thought how spontaneity and randomness catches the fish in a rye? With the unending struggles and battles in my shell with the daunting questions in my so-called "purpose in life"...everything throttled in a snap last night and FINALLY (after years of "soul searching") stood up to which I believe will make me catch that golden fish...
I was groomed to be in the medical field by my parents especially my mom. She wanted me to be a nurse. “Sayang naman ang pinag-aralan ko and lisensya ko kung hindi ko gagamitin diba?” For her, being a nurse in Norway or in the US is my "security blanket" for a much promising future. It'll not only secure my finances but also, experience a different kind of life – a life filled with opportunities and for the record, HARD WORK! Which I think – I’m gonna pass for a moment. I’m actually enjoying what keeps me busy right now – farming. Anyways, I sometimes wonder what life they have over there in the 1st world? Is it more than the usual or more special than here in my homeland? I guess we all live the same way -- it's just a matter of what fauna and society we prefer. I might not use my license and education as my source of income right now – but, channeling it to a better avenue like starting a community based health care service in the “bukid” sooner or later which isn’t new but poorly enforced by the government will simply add up to my substance as an individual – a personal commitment of “pass it on”. With a head held high, I am now a proud community nurse and farmer.
Spending time in the farm last week for four days (unaccompanied by Rica because of her office obligations) due to the scheduled 2nd picking of our squash farm, gave me the opportunity to look back at me and see what really matters in this life – KNOWING TO APPRECIATE even the minutest of things. I missed Rica so badly but it didn’t stop me to appreciate the totality of my recent experience in the farm. I learned how to be a “community nurse” again where our workers looked at me as a “guru” and asked me about “health myths”, etc. and sharing them valuable and practical information is the most rewarding of all. GOAL MET ika nga! Most people who don’t value their health or are too busy with their lives usually oversee it, but they don’t know the impact of it to these people deprived of information and interaction – just wanting to be heard and addressed. It feels good to see them smile whenever they see us arriving the area. My value in the farm increases!
Last night, my mom called me up and told me about my scheduled examination at DMC. I politely told her about my stand about my application as a nurse trainee in the hospital and clearly got my point in less than 10 minutes and what’s great about it – she BLESSED me in my chosen endeavor right now! I am so blessed and happy that I have gotten it out my system and told her that I can manage my life now even without going through all the “hassle” of being a nurse in the city. As she blessed my endeavor, everything automatically fell in place and became crystal clear.
What I learned from this experience:
1. OPEN UP!
2. APPRECIATE!
3. FOCUS!
4. Life is so random; we either go with the flow or go against!
5. Life has a smorgasbord of choices; it's only us who can decide which one comes first.
I was groomed to be in the medical field by my parents especially my mom. She wanted me to be a nurse. “Sayang naman ang pinag-aralan ko and lisensya ko kung hindi ko gagamitin diba?” For her, being a nurse in Norway or in the US is my "security blanket" for a much promising future. It'll not only secure my finances but also, experience a different kind of life – a life filled with opportunities and for the record, HARD WORK! Which I think – I’m gonna pass for a moment. I’m actually enjoying what keeps me busy right now – farming. Anyways, I sometimes wonder what life they have over there in the 1st world? Is it more than the usual or more special than here in my homeland? I guess we all live the same way -- it's just a matter of what fauna and society we prefer. I might not use my license and education as my source of income right now – but, channeling it to a better avenue like starting a community based health care service in the “bukid” sooner or later which isn’t new but poorly enforced by the government will simply add up to my substance as an individual – a personal commitment of “pass it on”. With a head held high, I am now a proud community nurse and farmer.
Spending time in the farm last week for four days (unaccompanied by Rica because of her office obligations) due to the scheduled 2nd picking of our squash farm, gave me the opportunity to look back at me and see what really matters in this life – KNOWING TO APPRECIATE even the minutest of things. I missed Rica so badly but it didn’t stop me to appreciate the totality of my recent experience in the farm. I learned how to be a “community nurse” again where our workers looked at me as a “guru” and asked me about “health myths”, etc. and sharing them valuable and practical information is the most rewarding of all. GOAL MET ika nga! Most people who don’t value their health or are too busy with their lives usually oversee it, but they don’t know the impact of it to these people deprived of information and interaction – just wanting to be heard and addressed. It feels good to see them smile whenever they see us arriving the area. My value in the farm increases!Last night, my mom called me up and told me about my scheduled examination at DMC. I politely told her about my stand about my application as a nurse trainee in the hospital and clearly got my point in less than 10 minutes and what’s great about it – she BLESSED me in my chosen endeavor right now! I am so blessed and happy that I have gotten it out my system and told her that I can manage my life now even without going through all the “hassle” of being a nurse in the city. As she blessed my endeavor, everything automatically fell in place and became crystal clear.
What I learned from this experience:
1. OPEN UP!
2. APPRECIATE!
3. FOCUS!
4. Life is so random; we either go with the flow or go against!
5. Life has a smorgasbord of choices; it's only us who can decide which one comes first.
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